寂寞。。因何而起？

昨晚我很寂寞，
因为我想起你。
曾经渡过一个个寂寞的日日夜夜，
只因为想你。
以为想你，能驱散寂寞，
结果，
越想你，越寂寞。
我想我对自己说过，
如果爱上你等于爱上寂寞，
那我，
放弃。
前天看藤井树，
里头有句话，
我好像在一个没有男朋友的爱情里，
爱着一个男朋友。
其实没有很适合我，
因为我是一个人承担
两个人的爱情。
they said,
fallen in love is like both sought after 4 each other ,
but in the end of our love ,
i only found ,
the love between us ,
hav faded as time passed,
no reason
no1 can tell me the reason y ?
y u changed?
u always told me ,
pls,
i cant always be by ur side
o,
come on,
even the dog u nvr met also knov u r changing ,
even the rubbish also know tats not wat i want!shit 4 u
stop giving me excuse when u juz wan to hav ur own life,alone
use all ur time with urself.
tats not ur fault,actually,
if u dun hav a girlfriend
without me,
pls learnt to be cherish,
especially when u got her
dun let her felt she's like nothing to u
cherish be4 u lost her,not be4 u got her
understand?
damn shit for u
my last word.