shall we be together,forever?

i know im asking too much
i know im insensible
just that
wat if we can stick together for all of our life
how awesome will tat be?
cant imagine tat rite^^
told u ~
tat will be simply wonderful.

i love u all so so so so so so(x100000000)much
i dunwan to separate with any of u
but the fact is impossible to be conquer by the virtual...
and im learning to accept it as a part n parcel of human's life
and also one of the vital district from growth cycle

i understand if we didnt separate
we will never learn what we have to
n we will all crammed in the same place n fighting for air and space
certainly n definitely
we deserved more than that
much more than.

so we all could bear the pain of segregation
for the day of success which will savor by us sweetly
we will learn more n meet more n be far more experience than
what we r now
we will grow
we will hurt
we will recover
and somehow we may lost some precious personality during our period
of war of survivor
but i sincerely hope tat n know tat
the tendency of our all's heart would never ever disappear

love u all deep in my heart n my soul
and i use to believe tat u all love me as different of my way but same of my depth too until forever^^
haha

相处少一点点期待，对人将更自在。

yeah
我们对人对事
常不自觉地带有深浅不一的期待
越是在乎深爱着的人
对对方的期待
就越是深沉
期待对方的热情期待对方的讨好期待对方的表现
于是
当我们的期待不被满足
就像饥渴的人不被餍足
失望透顶失落沙洲
而我们的彼方
又何罪之有？
善良的我们不忍也不能更不知如何怪罪
只好自己暗自内伤默默沮丧
只是为何我们要让自己活在如此卑微的期待和如此任性的别扭里？
何不就此解放自己的心灵解放所有的繁琐？
让心自在的飞扬
让人际关系轻舞飞翔
我们将更幸福更快乐更自在
解除期待误区，放开虚伪假装，我们将更自在。

hey,honey!

hey
honey!
u always ask me
how dare i to be a miss no n no n no?
i cnt give u an exact n precise answer as time we met often too short for longer n deeper conversation
so as a friend who loves u deeply
im going to press the cancel key of ur doubts n troubles here~
firstly,
we all have the right to say a "NO" to evryone n evrything
as we r the one who controls our life's direction
not others nor he she it
just us and just me and of coz just u.

"but how??!!i can't do it!im so scared i might irriate others and im a coward!"
listen,honey~
u r not a coward,u r braver than many others,
at least u no wat ur problem is n u try to overcome it
u r making ur life better! my sweetheart
the only option is
know who u r n wat u wanna be in ur life
we all need to find our position in this little complicated n much funs world with bit of determination n persistent of coz~
i suppose tats the answer u r chasing for?
or shall i make more details about it?
well,for example of my own,
when my mom said,
ok peggy u shall take an accountant course for i think it is good for u
then i will reply her
alrite mom,since u like tat course like hell,den maybe i can register it for u.
oh my,u dunnno how furious she is~hahahaha~

the secret is:
never obey n rely anything u know u dunwan
and dun ask me how i know i dunwan
wat if i love it after i give a try
yes,we cnt be so sure for things in this keep changing world
BUT
when i even feel struggle to think of how my life will become if i be an obedient cutie~i know directly i wont like it,at least now.I WOULD NOT.
just like how i hate my menstrual pain,i suppose~

so sweetie
now u know y n how i earn my nickname rite?
haha
n u hav no idea how much i like miss no n no n no
like i like my miss perfect lady~

life is equal
nothing ventured nothing gained
n stop thought grass on my side is greener then urs
just put some pepper onto it~
u can do it^^
kambateh~++++UUUUU!!!

stop it,im thinking.

我在思考着
我在烦恼着
哭泣酝酿着。

因为不愿放弃
因为还有希望
所以甘愿哭泣

把所有的所有
不甘的
不愿的
消极的
负面的
悲伤的
压力的

统统宣泄
然后重新开始

因为不是完全相信自己是
可以的
因为还很不安
因为感觉孤独
所以哭泣
把所有的恐惧
放下吧

迎向美好的光明前
总得先
拥抱
阴影。

a starting

another starting point to
another new world journey ,new world view ,new world value
im facing my new challenges bravely

my heart is calm n full with peacefulness
like lake without any reprises and ripples
im resting n recovering from the cruelness i'd met months
n preparing
for the life i had yearn for years

laptop college course books exam friends new environment
im prepared.
come ahead.
im stronger than ever

vex---ing

firstly
happy CNY and valentine to every1（whom only read my blog la,haha）
secondly
im in trouble==

minor major big minor small major

im tired

i cnt make any rational decision


my life is falling apart

and i want to shout out 'FUCK IT' loud!!!!!!

命中注定？

难道是命中注定？
5年来
不是没有拥有过爱情
但是
从没在5年的任何一个代表爱情的节日里
有情人的相伴

有时
不禁会哀呼道：
怎么会那么那么衰啊....
但一转身就会继续若无其事的微笑

我想
我是害怕寂寞的坚强伪装者。